Who Am I Trying To Be?

Assalamualaikum. May peace be upon you.

First of all, I had a little frustration on this background. I've changed it to my own picture but it is still pink. This background is actually what I chose when I was 12 years old (maybe). Now, it is not interesting anymore as it was 4 years ago. As time pass by, I have learnt so much, felt so much and thought a lot more. But maybe I was lying to myself. 

My ambition is to be a doctor. At least that's what I've been told. But. I am not sure about that. Combining my weaknesses and comparing it to my abilities, the idea of being a doctor is always impossible. I felt my heart beating furiously as I watched videos of surgeries. My mouth smiled as I read stories related to something medical. My heart started pounding when I wrote the word 'medical'. Like right now. But I am just not sure. I have too much weaknesses. I am still in my comfort zone where having my head over the cloud is just a usual thing. I know how hard it would be being a medical student. Medical degrees which will cost a hand and a leg. The white coat and stethoscope hanging around my neck. How satisfying it would be. Not to forget, the battle I have to fight in. I am just scared.